塔儸十字占卜法

我的A


我的B


我的C


我的D


我的E

人群..

站在人群中,有著一種莫名的恐懼感,
突然閒,有著不想站在人群之中的感覺,
有時候,我不曉得是我頭暈還是怎麽了,
看到的像是天旋地轉.
我也搞不清楚,
怪人的怪毛病?

一张有感觉的照片..

看了这张照片只觉得有感觉..

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受伤后的我,前途尽然是一片空白..
我试着努力去安排..
每一次一次的跌倒都让我不知所措..
不要再考验我了.. please~

Disappointed..

i'm sorry cz make someone disappointed.. it's not feel good also to make someone disappointed.. sory dear..

Tired..

Physically and mentally tired..

Importance

Am i still important for everyone?
The importance of mie still be there?
Or i am no more important for them?
My tears no more important for them?
My opinion is not important anymore?
My feelings are nothing important?
Obviously.. I am nothing important now..
No more important for u..

D.R.E.A.M.

昨天发了一个梦,我不知道是我怕了还是什么.发梦有很多小孩..梦里发生什么事,我不太记得了.只是很多小孩..这个梦是想给我什么提示吗?我不晓得了.

有时候,我们真的不能等待天意的到来,或许我们应该做些什么来阻止事情的发生.只希望天上的婆婆能保佑我们平平安安得度过每一个困境.最后,我希望我能看到我的前途的那一署光..婆婆,请你启发我.. 我不想再成为家里的负担了..

1 year oledi le..

Passed 1 year oledi.. stil remember last make mooncake let po po eat.. but i dun hav the chance.. tis year.. mooncake festival make me thk of her.. i'll remember every mooncake festival.. still remember last year having my stpm trial.. cried alot.. too sudden.. being stay wf po po 15 years since i born.. till form 3 onli move out.. sure got alot memories about her.. stay in a same roof.. a poor house.. but still happy.. still tot of wan 2 bring my bf to let her c.. as long as v all are ok now.. im sure she oso happy for her..


- mie - 琳
7 Sept 2007 9.34pm

对不起篇

对不起,
因为我让大家都操心了,
我不能自立.
对不起,
因为我是没有用的人,
连自己的自信也可以给丢掉.
对不起,
因为我让爸妈都失望了,
我不能为你们争光.
对不起,
因为二十岁的我,
竟然一无是处.
对不起,
因为我竟然做出让人对我是去信心的事,
不是别人对我失去信心而是我亲手夺走别人对我的信心.
对不起,
因为我真的误会了某人,
原来她是由原因的.
对不起,
因为我从前都以为我很顾及他人的感受,
原来都只是我自私的想法.
对不起,
因为我时常低估了自己的能力,
其实我是行的只是我不敢去面对而已.
对不起,
因为我很胆却,
但我是真的也想努力面对只是我不知从哪里开始.
对不起,
因为我没了自我,
连面对一份工作也想逃避.
对不起,
因为那些帮我的人,
我竟然浪费了你们的期望.
对不起,
因为我的选择,
我几乎失去我最珍贵的东西.
对不起,
因为我让某人很难受,
我的心其实也很难受.
对不起,
因为我不会再向现实是低头,
因为我不会再让现实夺走我所拥有的任何东西,
因为我要自己做决定和选择,
因为我不想再让谁失望,
因为我要做个有用和有理想的人,
最后,容许我再说一声"对不起"
因为从今以后我再也不会轻易说对不起,
因为,
我要快乐的坚强活下去!!

to my dearest family n my dear.. love u all forever..

Acha septriasa . Irwansyah

Ada Cinta

Ucapkanlah kasih
Satu kata yang kunantikan
Sebab ku tak mampu membaca matamu
Mendengar bisikmu

Nyanyikanlah kasih
Senandung kata hatimu
Sebab ku tak sanggup
Mengartikan getar ini
Sebab ku meragu pada dirimu

Mengapa berat ungkapkan cinta
Padahal ia ada dalam rinai hujan
Dalam terang bulan juga dalam shedu sedang
Mengapa sulit mengaku cinta padahal ia terasa
Dalam rindu dendam hening malam cinta terasa ada


My Heart
Disini kau dan aku
Terbiasa bersama
Menjalani kasih sayang
Bahagia ku denganmu

Pernahkah kau menguntai
Hari paling indah
Ku ukir nama kita berdua
Disini surga kita

Bila kita mencintai yang lain
Mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
Sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
Sayang ku akan hilang

If u love somebody
Could we be this strong
I will fight to win
Our love will conquer all
Wouldn’t reach my love
Even just one night
Our love will stay in my heart
My heart

toyaa pig

牙关

词 : 阿信 曲 : 怪兽 编曲 : 五月天

五月天《牙关》

放肆的尽情挥霍
那一年玩的多疯
你和我站上全世界的最快乐的颠峰
等着雨停的午后
你希望此刻永久
而现在永久就是永久的牢笼
让我一直在等候
等待后面是等待
更沉默的等待
然后咬紧了牙关
等待更多的等待
如果你爱过我
你不会就这样走
就这样丢下我
和那些天真承诺
如果我再也不
不能再更多的承受
痛哭之后却又咬紧牙关
你最爱哪个歌手
最爱吃什么火锅
最爱把小小的脸
轻轻的靠在我胸口
这城市每个角落
回忆都霸占街头
我知道你会想起雨停的时候
我知道你会回头
继续飘流
痛哭之后却又咬紧牙关
继续等候

after an age..

i have get offer at 13 july.. in a short term.. i did alot stuffs.. i have go in uum for 1 week.. but i cant stay there.. i admit i am a person very depends on family.. i wan passive fella.. that's all.. i dun thk i nid 2 explain much 2 every1.. bcz i hv make decision 2 do oledi.. so now.. i will hav a another new different starting.. so i must learn 2 b independent.. sometimes.. i am not dun wan 2 make decision by my own.. it is bcz i wanna consider alot stuffs.. n ppl around me dun und me.. start now.. i will thk clearly b4 i say put my decision.. god.. help me.. i wanna b a confident person.. i will try my best here.. thanks god.. n oso sory to god.. bcz i wan wasted the chance tat u giv me.. but im sure.. there will b another road 2 let me walk out from tis situation.. not all ppl oso hav 2 walk the same road.. so.. ga yau!! and here.. i wanna thanks to my parent bcz they really support me alot.. i love them very very much..




- mie 琳 -
10.22pm
31 july 2007

现在是凌晨3点钟咯~~

睡不着啦..可能今天睡太多了..如果有个人看到我的帖子一定又会骂我..这么也都不睡~~嘻嘻..没关系拉..也没什么机会咯..肚子也不是很舒服..所以睡不着咯..好像有一条虫在里面钻来钻去的..好不舒服哦..:(

昨天去夜市集看到了我小时候蛮爱玩的玩具..很久都没看见那样东东了..哈哈..那就是钓鱼机..好怀念哦~~如果那时的价钱不是很贵的话..我一定会买起来收藏..我觉得那个价钱真的太贵了..小时候玩也不需那个价钱了吧..那里竟然卖RM19.90..拜托~夜市集不可能卖那么贵啦!!有机会我会去以前妈妈常带我去的玩具店找找..也许有可能找到哦..^^最近大家都好像老了许多..总是回忆起当年小时候..小学啊~小时候时常玩什么啊~哈哈..总是回忆最美~刚才才跟我的朋友们去喝茶..谈起了我们的小时候..小时候,我和妹妹很爱玩水..因为我们都一起洗澡嘛..所以那时候用尽各种办法玩水..跳进浴缸里...塞住地上流水出去的那个洞,然后水装到很高,我们就在那边游泳..哈哈..想起来还蛮肮脏的嘛~~但是玩了以后会再冲凉才出去啦!要不然就将沐浴露倒在地上滑滑的..然后我们就滑来滑去..哈哈..还有一招就是开着花洒然后就跟妹妹轮流唱歌轮流冲..最爱的歌是...."喂喂~不要怕~你是好娃娃~~自己跌倒..自己爬~~"所以今天的我,有那么好的歌喉就是从那里锻练出来的..嘻嘻~晚安咯~



-琳- mie
3.28am
14 july 2007

擦身而过..

人生真的有那么的一幕吗?从没想过我会亲身遇到..我不肯定是不是那个人..就是有那种感觉..好久没见到他了..偶然的一见让我想起了以前的事情..回忆真美丽..因为那都过去了..而现实却很难过..因为我们都必须面对去克服..但只有这样人才能更勇敢..

今天收到了一些好消息..但是对我来说也不是很有用..没关系..这样总比没消息好啊..加油哦~~琳,不要放弃~~ ^^




-琳- mie
12.36 am
12 july 2007

emmm.. no topic..

emm.. another day.. today i am a good girl.. help to do housework.. hehe.. mum bring me to MCA 2day.. my mum n dad asked me go MCA few times oledi.. they ask me to go there n ask wor.. me also duno wat 2 ask also cz the result also havent come out yet.. they cant do anything.. same to me also.. if i cant get local n nid 2 study in private.. i got an idea.. i will work half year in singapore to earn some money 1st.. then onli continue next year.. not sure dad let me go anot.. mum ok de.. cant do anything now.. i juz try 2 plan onli.. if i wan 2 work.. it is better to go singapore to work cz the salary higher.. but it is not yet a decision for me also.. i have to wait the result at 15 of july 1st.. hope it is a good news for me.. emmm.. mayb treat it as a birthday gift from god for me tis year?hehe.. hope it will be a good news.. if cant get den i have to surrender also.. lol.. i will be ok.. cz i noe it is a faith.. god dun wan me go must have their own reason.. n i noe god will arrange it for me.. *pray* thanks god.. ^^n today busy whole day also.. cz i wan 2 sew my new dress.. it is not suit for me.. make it whole day.. hope i can wear it cz i like it so much actually.. so.. i must make it !!hehe..



-琳-mie
11.24pm
9 july 2007

oh yea.. wanna share a good memory trip here.. hehe.. my 1st trip wf my dear oso.. 14 of june 2007 to 16 june 2007.. there are 9 ppl trip.. all my buddies also.. hehe.. v hav go 2 langkawi.. although eat jor some expensive seafood at 1st.. but the las nite.. v hav eat a damn good seafood meal!!cheap sumore.. my stomachache very fulled tat time~~~ haha.. but it very taste nice.. visit few places.. seven well scene?U MUST GO!!IF NOT U WILL REGRET!!! haha.. walk till i wanna die.. n nothing 2 c at all.. almost same wf the bukit bendera at menglembu.. v hav take cable car.. reach the top.. it's great there.. v juz took some photos there onli cz.. rain worrr.. grhh... went there 3 days oso rain.. den v also go underwater world.. there alot penguin there.. cute... hehe.. emm.. wat else v do there.. oh ya.. celerated one of us de birthday.. fei yun~~ haha.. he juz eat a piece of pizza n all of us eat pizza there.. haha.. n the motel v rented is just next to the beach.. damn near.. n nice.. the air cond~~ cold~~~ make my nose not feeling well.. they say "dirty worrr.." lol.. wat i thk the most terrible in tis trip is.. nid 2 take a long journey bus.. n also.. the bus not comfortable!!! anyway.. tis is really a trip tat can say a farewell trip for all of us cz all oso going 2 further study in different place respectively.. all the best for u all.. take care.. miss all of ya here..

another new day..

Another new day for me.. luck changed better.. haha.. Going out shopping at parade wf mummy.. there a show at parade there oso.. i being pull out to join.. haha.. first time in my life.. the show is organised by mayfair to promote the competition dare2lose.. playing there.. very shy man.. n get some vouchers worth RM 600.. very lucky.. haha.. thanks god..


-琳- mie
8 july 07
9.14pm

雨天..

终于,下雨了..几天的天气都让快让我生病了..今天,07年07月07号..很多人都选在今天结婚..我的表姐也和他的男朋友在今天注册..在此,恭喜他们..真得很登对..



换作是我的话,我一定会选09年09月09号..长长久久..但是我还没想洁婚啦..如果能的话,自己偷偷订婚..哈哈..但是对我来说,这也未免太遥远了吧.. 有谁想一辈子被婚姻绑住呢?日子还有多得很.. 就算没有人愿意要一辈子守着我,我也有我的弟妹..




-琳- mie
6.09pm
7 july 2007

lonely.. lovely..

有种说不出口的悲伤从心里涌了出来..我到底是怎样了..我想怎样..拜托.."情绪"不要再霸占我的心了!!


-琳- mie
3.40am
7 july 2007

hello..

mie here.. i prefer people call me like this.. short n easy.. remember!it's "mi.." but not "meh..".. long time didnt write blog already le.. feel like want to write then create another 1 again..

time passed very fast.. half year passed.. have i really think of what i gonna do for my future?i have make alot of plans.. i am not those type of people that not planning for future.. just a cant predict anything now.. i cant plan for it.. i dont wanna be a burden of my family..

我那3.00能做什么呢?考到了这个成绩后,心理不知不觉的安慰起来..这下子认定能考进大学的我..做好心理准备了..只是担心是否能拿到我想要得而已.. 我非常开心因为我能成为萧家族的第一位大学生了..无论如何.. 我也要为我的爸爸妈妈争一口气!!!到了成绩出来那天..omg..我的天啊..我竟然没有得到任何offer!!这样一来..我的梦想破裂了..我不能为爸爸妈妈争光了..我很伤心.. 因为我如果上诉不成功的话..我也都浪费了我中六的两年时间.. 我这是干什么啦.. 我知道换一换角度我可以找到别的路..但是我还是很不甘心.. 因为我是应该得到大学里的那一个位子..所以我是不会放弃的..我知道我的朋友们也会支持我的.. 如果他们不收我也是他们的损失.. 好了..希望每一位能为我祈祷一边我能得到我应该得到的位子..





-琳- mie
3.32am
7 july 2007